freaaaaaaaakEDD
i'm currently so freaked out by the medicine essay test and interviews.
tomorrow's the essay test!!!. i'm so gonna blank out. *silent screams*
no I can't let that happen.
breathe, huimin, breathe.
thn there's the medicine interviews next Wednesday at 9am. I'm scheduled to reach there at 8am though.
i am so anxious now i'm gonna poop.
Notice 'interviews' is in plural. meaning there'll be two freaking freaking freaking 30 mins interviews.
g.a.s.p. i hate interviews. i havent been doing well in interviews. i suck at interviews. damn.
anws, i admit i havent been taking my application to medicine seriously because i was so low in confidence i didnt think i'll get shortlisted for interviews.
now my super unrealistic dream to become a freaking doctor/ medical researcher is getting so real.

okay. any-anyway, my company had this big bash at some club in Clarke Quay on thursday night.
my boss was really generous to ask me along and i had the most wonderful night there since Christmas celebration with boyfriend.
needless to say, the night was SO MUCH BETTER than prom because i was surrounded by grown ups with liquor and more liquor.
i love what grown ups do.
okay, i realise i'm really lazy to post photos. i'll always say later but thn forget about it entirely. this time i shall post it. I SHALL, when i collate them all.

i've this REALLY REALLY WEIRD OUT-OF-THE-BOX dream last night. or rather this morning.
its unsuitable to be blogged out loud.
but still, the dream is really dumb and ridiculous.
totally opposite of the reality.

so i was reading my previous entries. and realised this blog has come a long way. from accompanying me in worrying about SYF (band) to my O levels to SYF (guitar) to A levels to now. i'm so dreading tomorrow.
i dread having to go to NUS and face all the candidates applying for medicine and sitting there for 45 + 45 minutes writing an essay and doing the psycho test. i can like imagine everyone else so scribbly while i sit there with this blank look on my face and the examiner shaking his head upon seeing my blank look.
i dread going there alone
its damn irritating. i dont know how to get to NUS alone too.
i'm gonna cry. Out loud.